What makes it worse is how helpless I feel when I try to show them how beautiful they are. Because they all are, but just telling them that won’t help. Will it? Repeated often enough, possibly, but I don’t know.
Although the fact that I have a girlfriend should stop me from telling too many girls that they’re beautiful.
I genuinely do want to help them, though. Sometimes I worry that I only want to help girls with issues because they’ll reward me with the sexings, which is disgusting. As long as they appreciate me, I guess, something to that affect.
That sounds bad too. I just don’t care if they don’t fuck me, especially since I’m in a relationship. That should go without saying. But I sayed it already, so fuck you.
My girlfriend is actually one of the girls.
I need to tell her she’s beautiful more often than I do.
She just texted me: “Goodnight, I hope I see you tomorrow : *”
“I hope so. Good night, beautiful.”
It’s a start.